There are some days that I am still confused by someone while other days I am not. Yesterday everything was cool and then today I am confused by his actions. There are a lot of days that I feel pushed out, like I am not important. And the days I feel like that are days that I am extremely lonely. This long distance sometimes is really hard. I do have a good group of friends here, but a lot of times I am missing him. I miss hanging out with his neighborhood kids. I miss taking about a friend's kids and having fun. I miss cooking together and cleaning together or working together. Friends can only replace the lonely feeling so much. I am getting really close to one of my friends here. I am going to miss here if she moves first or if i move first. I am really looking forward to going to texas with her. I think she will enjoy it a lot.